I may or may not have burst into tears when I saw this…
I am really hard on myself. I don’t know if anyone else does this, but, sometimes those inner voices get so mean… especially after flashbacks. And all I can see are my flaws. All I can hear are the criticisms. And I just freeze. And then I get mad at myself for freezing. It’s a cycle.
And I’m just so… so tired.
And that’s been today… and yesterday… and the day before…
And I don’t mean to freeze. I wish I could flip a switch and shut it off and get back to work. Oh man, if I could do that, I would in a heartbeat. Unfortunately, I haven’t found that switch in my brain yet… because… it doesn’t exist.
And so… I really, really needed this today.
And I wanted to pass it along. If anyone else is struggling, you’re not alone! And just know, your best is enough. Just because your best today isn’t the same as yesterday’s, it’s still enough. And don’t even compare yourself to your neighbor. That’s just mean. It’s not fair. They don’t have your scars.
Do your best right now. Today. Whatever that looks like, it’s enough.
If you need a day to heal so your best can be better later, that’s okay! That’s what you need. So, do your best at resting today.
That’s what I’m going to do. I’m muting those mean voices and snuggling my baby. That’s what my best looks like today.